When I First Discover You

To my dearest child, my baby.
You may not read this until you truly appreciate what alphabets are, in any case I’m going to make it happen once you reach one. #kiasumummy #asianmom

But whenever the time comes for you to read this, here is the story when I first discover your presence in me. My first, precious first baby.

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The Wedding Ring(s)

Post engagement, I learned a great deal about diamond rings and in pursuant to the learning I became so obsessed over a piece of jewelry.

I googled top celebrities’ rings and ended up envying how fortunate Kim Kardashian’s life is. Close tab. Then re-open the tab only to realize I can never afford that bloody 9ct diamond using my current income. Close tab again.

But you know, to be disappointed over fate aint a good idea. After all I’ll be getting a diamond ring too, and not just any grandma’s unwanted sentimental piece LOL!Read More »

The Krabi Trip

Two weekends ago my husband and I, we flew off to a neighbouring country for a quick weekend getaway. I wanted to utilize my annual leave as year-end is swiftly approaching and fortunately he has the lux of flexible working days so I intuitively usha-ed Airasia for a desirable destination.

Appealed by relatively cheap flight fares, I found myself at the “Booking Confirmation” page for a return trip to Krabi. Weeks forward, there we were. 3-month old newlywed by the majestic beauty of Andaman Sea, air temperature way hotter than our own motherland and handful of adventures to tick off from the bucket-list! Here’s for commemoration purposes:Read More »

Second Secondment


noun  se·cond·ment  \ sə̇ˈkän(d)mənt \

plural -s

“:the detachment of a person (such as military officer) from his or her regular organization for temporary assignment elsewhere”

Let me start by transporting you back to the time I wish I can flush out of my mind but I can’t. It was a usual day at the office when a senior associate called me to discuss on our files. The discussion went on at a normal rate, slowly accelerated to a point where I was interrogated like a criminal till my heart shrunk to its tiniest size. I hold back my tears, not wanting to chicken out in front of him and when we were done I dashed my way to the toilet, burst the tears I’ve been holding for that good terrible thirty minutes.Read More »

It’s Me-Time Now

Last night Ajai returned home looking all moody and gloomy. He did not speak much (God knows how much a chatterbox that old guy is) except from greeting me with the usual hubs-wife hello hi. He ditched our Friday night BJ’s date (Ben’s & Jerry in case you get it wrong yeah) and he stared at the ceiling for hours when the most interesting thing in the house is obviously me. When his silence speaks volume, I knew something was not right. “You okay?” “Okay”

Wow sometimes it amuses me how a cunning lawyer like him sucks at lying to his own wife. I mean hello dude your tone says it all, you are not okay! I reached for the dusty “How To Comfort People For Dummies” manual at the back of my head. My virtual reading of it suggested me to cuddle him, make him a killer-ass coffee, and offer him a back massage which I am so abysmal at.

After 5 minutes he muttered “I wanna go watch TV”

My trophy wife hurrah fell splat on the floor and died. Read More »

First Weekend Getaway Together

For the past few weeks works had been super exhausting. New tasks poured like rain and I had to catch up with the amount of matters I left behind from the one-day wedding leave (you read it right, one day). I came back home mostly at night with terrible zombie look, no appetite for anything else. Not that it was an unusual thing considering this routine made up 90% of my solo life but at this point I have a creature waiting for my return so I don’t feel at ease for not being able to put on the wifey cap right.

Thank God Ajai understands the situation, tolerates as myself desire. He may or he may be not but so far that old guy utters no complaint yet so we take it the former way yes? And the best thing, on Wednesday night prior to the long Awal Muharam weekend he asked.Read More »

We Tied The Knot!

Six years ago, when I was still a very innocent uni student I was invited to join the uni’s debate team recruit. That too, was when I met UM debate captain for the first time ever .

When I saw him I knew he must be the one I needed to impress the most so I made the move to be noticed. (Which turned out wrong because to date, he kept on proclaiming I was the one who tackled him first *rolling eyes*). Approached him, gave him ideas so he knew my brilliance.

From that little approach I made (ugh) he became one important person I appreciate having around. But still I was not at all serious when I said yes to dating him, what’s more to build a life together. (Just thought uni life would be much easier to have a senior boyfriend hahaha). Back then he was just “another boyfriend”, just like all the 12 guys I dated before.

But slowly, from debate captain to debate teammate to debate coach, law school senior, he became a boyfriend who patiently weathered all my unreasonable antics, then a fiancée who was so committed to tie the knot.

And then on 25.8.2017 he married me. Superseded all prior titles, this guy is now my husband! And I am a PUAN for God’s sake!

I am still over the moon with this marriage so my perspective is all the good things and my description about marriage is..confirmed biased. But all I can say is it feels so surreal to wake up to him every morning, to salam his hands before work, to return home to his warm hug and just cuddle on the couch doing nothing else (I’m such a disgusting wife). Life sure feels so purposeful at the moment, Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah.


I would not want to have this the other way round.

I love you baby.

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